I hate the world, the people in it. Why do I write in here when I'm angry or tired? I'll find the answer to that one day. Excepting very few people, I don't trust anyone. not even myself, sometimes. My moods change so quickly that sometimes its hard to control. Over the years I've learned to hide emotion, thoughts, words because I never talked. Then when these periods of rage and very extreme sadness come over me, I can mask it most of the time. Its gotten worse with length, and harder to keep under control. This thing, I don't know what to call it, drains my energy, and I stay tired all the time. I hide that too, which makes things worse. It all started about a year ago when I discovered something that needed to stay inside, still does, that makes me have these extreme mood swings. I just know people will find out, that they would laugh and ridicule me, and I would become more of a social outcast, even with family. Sometimes I go home and I cry and I want to die. Listen people, no matter what you say I am human, even though I have problems. I just wish... if people knew what I know that they would accept it all, take it in and keep it there. I guess I've told you all too much, and you've guessed everything. It doesn't matter, you don't know who I am anyways. All you know about me nobody else knows... sorry for all this, although if you read this far, you might have actually been interested. But most likely you either had nothing else to do or skipped to the bottom or something. I need to shut up.